Jeb
Jackson loved walking country roads, enjoying the sounds of peace and serenity. Though nineteen, he had experienced life to be much like a
wandering road in that one never knows what the future holds 'til it
happens. Without turning
the next curve this late spring morning of 1958, however, he knew there
would be a continuance of birds chirping, the fragrant smell of flowers and
shrubs which grew abundantly throughout the countryside, plus the
mournful sound of wind blowing through tall south Mississippi pines.
God
must have developed a special spot in his heart for people who would one
day live here by blessing them beforehand with splendid scenery, which
rich out-of-state folks would pay much to see, yet not take time to
enjoy. Evidently, you had
to be poor, like Jeb, to periodically stop on a knoll, slowly sweep the
horizon with your eyes and soak in the absolute beauty God intended
people to gaze upon and enjoy. Or
watch closely as a mockingbird flounced its wings in hopes of flushing
out a tasty meal.
A gray
squirrel snapped its tail vertically, vibrated it, and yelped several
sharp barks before scurrying into security of a nest.
Jeb heard the vehicle approaching that had startled the squirrel
and positioned himself alongside the road with thumb up in hopes of
catching a ride.
Like
many folks who used this particular highway, the driver slowed and
stopped for a fellow traveler. First
glance revealed an elderly man who farmed somewhere in the local area.
The fact he was a farmer was obvious from faded bib overalls,
tanned weather-beaten face, and big, rough hands, which appeared never
to have met a pair of gloves. Additional
clues were his tattered old straw hat, the type with a green sun visor sewn
into the brim, and his Chevrolet, half-ton pick-up truck, which issued
the definite odor of cow and pig droppings. He
was returning from the livestock yard in Hattiesburg, a town
having a population of approximately 60,000, located a few miles to the
north of Jeb's hitch-hike point.
Jeb
knew the impending ride would be a smelly one but was grateful for the
opportunity to head southward. He
had lingered enough admiring the picturesque view while enjoying the antics
of birds and squirrels. It was time to
continue the foreboding Poplarville journey, conduct business, and return
home to Hattiesburg before day's end.
"Wanna'
ride, young'un?" The
driver hollered as the truck rolled to a halt.
Yes, Sir," Jeb replied happily.
"Where
ya' headed?"
"Poplarville."
"Well,
you'll git almost there with me. I
live a few miles jus' this side of where you're goin'."
"That'll
be fine, Sir. I sure do 'preciate
your stoppin'."
"My
pleasure."
"You
got kin foke in Poplarville?"
The old man queried while shifting the gears of his tired, old
pick-up.
"No Sir, I don't."
"Well,
do ya' mind me askin' why you're goin' down there?"
"No,
Sir. I'm going to Pearl
River Jr. College to see if I can get a football scholarship."
"Well,
son," the old man chuckled, "not meaning to hurt yore
feelings' none but you sure are a mite skinny-lookin' to be wantin' to
play football...'specially at Pearl River."
"Yes,
Sir, that's what I've been told. But
I played first string quarterback at Petal high school for a coupla'
years and feel I can play at The River if given a chance."
The
old man failed to respond but a smile slipped over his face and his eyes
twinkled. Jeb figured part
of the reaction was because of his 'never say die', youthful attitude
-which probably reminded the farmer of his younger days- and part was
perhaps because of his reference to Pearl River Jr. College as ‘The
River’.
Folks
'round these parts took a lot of pride in the college because of good
educational opportunities it offered sons and daughters.
Additionally, though it had the smallest student enrollment of
the 13 state junior colleges, The River consistently produced
outstanding football teams, which were perennial state champs or
runners-up to the state champions in the state's junior college league.
The coach, T.D. (Dobie) Holden, was a legend in his time.
His own high school football days had been played at Picayune
High School during the 1930s. Picayune
is a relatively small city situated about 40 miles north of the beaches
of the Mississippi Gulf Coast, and some 15 miles south of Poplarville
where the college is located.
During
his senior year at Picayune High, Dobie and teammates whipped the best
high school teams in Mississippi for the state football championship,
though pre-season rankings had listed them in last place.
His high school was extremely small in comparison with opponent
schools, and folklore had it that the football players were treated as
backwoods country bumpkins before their last game with one of the larger
urban schools. After
soundly defeating this last opponent, however, the team was looked at
differently and shown more respect.
Young Thomas Dobie Holden was
recruited by and played for the Louisiana State University (LSU)Tigers,
better known as 'Tigahs', as pronounced by Louisiana Cajuns. He Co-Captained the football team his senior year
at LSU and scored the winning touchdown against Ole Miss (The University
of Mississippi), which was at that time, and still is, an archrival of
LSU.
Local
folks loved talking about Pearl River football and swapping tales about
their beloved coach, though at times he perplexed them with unorthodox
ways and unpredictable demeanor. He
was an individualist. A
favorite story recounted many times was how he acquired a nickname of
'Crawdad.' Before entering
Picayune High School and becoming a star football player, young Dobie
attended an all-boys Catholic boarding school, St. Stanislaus, in Bay
St. Louis, Mississippi. One
day, Dobie slipped several live crayfish, which are called crawfish or
'crawdads' in the Deep South, into the holy water. Crawdads can be likened to small lobsters, some exceeding
four to six inches in length from the tip of their tails to the end of
their claws. And a pinch
from those claws could put you on your knees in pain.
On that particular day when the holy water was tainted by the
addition of several small crustaceans, and during the height of a
religious ceremony, when the Priest dipped his fingers into the
desecrated water, one crawdad latched onto his finger.
Experiencing sharp pain, the Father danced, wiggled and screamed
in a manner never before witnessed by members of the congregation.
This revelation, along with embellishment of the resulting chaos,
usually resulted in hysterical laughter to the point of tears from those
who had never heard the tale. And
listeners who had heard the anecdote many times never tired of it.
Such stories, talk, and admiration were part of the bond that held area
people together and gave all a sense of pride to be associated with 'The
River', its fabled coach, and the continued success of both.
The
truck droned along over hills and valleys one encounters on the drive
between Hattiesburg and Poplarville, slowly progressing toward Jeb's
eventual meeting with Coach Holden.
He dreaded the encounter but wanted so much to obtain a college
education and, hopefully, one day improve his economic and social status
in life. Entry into Pearl
River College would be the first step toward achievement of these
ultimate goals. There was a
tremendous problem to overcome, however, in that his family was poor and
could not afford to send him to college. Therefore, as he saw the situation, his dreams were tied to
success in obtaining a football scholarship that would cover college
expenses. This was the
burning motivational factor driving him to the dreaded meeting with
Coach Holden, an ominous, foreboding venture that plagued him the
past several weeks. He had
heard many tales about the coach; one being that he was a psychological
wizard, capable of making grown men cry.
Also, as rumor went, he had psychic powers, unusual abilities
that allowed him to determine falsehoods when uttered.
But the most frightening characteristic attributed to Holden was
that he enjoyed verbally toying with an individual, much like a cat
plays with a mouse before dealing the lethal blow.
While
those thoughts haunted him, Jeb reflected upon his earlier conversation
with the farmer. "I
can't blame the man for the unbelieving look he gave me after I told him
my intentions. My hopes and
dreams seem impossible even to me.
Here I am a five foot, seven inch, 130-pound high school dropout;
son of a poor, illiterate, automobile mechanic with five kids; and a
descendant from an immediate family tree that has never yielded a
college graduate. Entertaining
the notion that this great coach, whom I hope to talk with, will see far
beyond these shortfalls and grant me the honor of joining his proud
football team. What a
fruitcake I must be to others. I
wouldn't be surprised if this old salt-of-the-earth farmer stopped his
truck and demanded my departure before I begin frothing at the mouth. For surely I must be rabid or loony."
True
to his word, the old man dropped Jeb off within a few miles of the
college.
"You
take care, young'un," he cautioned.
"And watch out for Dobie."
"Yes,
Sir, I will."
Ten
minutes passed before Jeb caught another ride toward the school.
Ten agonizing minutes during which he again questioned his
resolve and desire to continue this apparently impossible task. In the end, however, he reached the same conclusion as in the
past: "I must go on because there are no other options."
The second driver dropped him off on highway 11 on which part of
the PRC campus borders.
Standing
on the side of the highway, Jeb slowly scanned the hilly slope on which
the college was situated. He
had visited the school before and knew his way around the small campus. But each time he arrived, the teenager loved to stop at this
roadside vantage point and take in the beauty through admiring, envious
eyes. He was the outsider
wanting so much to become part of this educational environment, fearing
that he never would, yet driven to try, try, try!
Housed
predominantly in eleven buildings, the school had an administration
building, library, two girls' dormitories, two boys' dormitories, a
cafeteria, a science building, the band hall, the vocational education
building, and a gymnasium. Additionally,
there were approximately 10-20 veteran apartments and a football
stadium. A two-way road
encircled the front campus and all buildings were located behind the
paved road. Many tall
pines, a few very majestic old oaks, flowerbeds, and seemingly unending
evergreen shrubbery covered the campus between the drive and the
highway. This wooded area
blotted out a sometimes-merciless summer sun and harbored an occasional
breeze that whispered through treetops, creating an ideal spot for
students to gather and relax between classes.
Glancing at the boy's dorm brought to mind fun times he had
enjoyed during earlier visits, and the girl dorms reminded him of
several pretty ladies with whom he wanted to become better acquainted.
"Schools must exist," Jeb reflected, "that have
more majestic buildings and prettier campuses, but those schools are for
other folks, not for me. This
is my school."
Jeb
soon began the relatively short trek from the highway to the Coach's
office, which was located in the center of the school complex.
The location provided a commanding view of on-campus student
activities, an arrangement resulting in athletes conducting amorous
activities elsewhere. Players
knew if the ol' man saw them with a girl, there would be hell to pay
should they make the slightest mistake on the football field.
He saw all, forgot nothing.
Jeb
hesitated before knocking on the door, aware of conversation coming from
behind it. "God, I
wish I'd called ahead for an appointment," he murmured to himself.
But fear that Coach would have told him not to come had kept him
from doing so. He knew
people are less apt to decline a request if made in person.
Taking a deep breath, he mustered all available courage and
timidly knocked on the door. A
moment later it flung open, framing the imposing form of Coach Lewis
Murray. He was a
middle-aged man of about six feet, two inches in height who had
approximately 230 pounds well distributed over a big frame.
From what Jeb had heard about him, he was a rather intelligent
man, a Korean War veteran, a good husband and father, a Captain in the
local Army National Guard unit, and a darned good football line coach
who got concerted effort from his charges.
"Hello, young man, c'mon in!"
Coach Murray boomed out, offering a solid handshake as he
laughingly observed Jeb's temporary state of rigor mortis. He wore a big smile underneath friendly eyes and Jeb began to
relax. The overall demeanor
of the man gave the healthy impression of an individual at peace with
himself, happy with his work and life.
"Thanks,
Coach," Jeb said weakly as he entered the room.
"Why hello,
Jeb," Coach Holden greeted as he rose and offered a handshake.
He stood about five feet, eleven inches tall, on a partly
overweight frame of approximately 185 pounds, had silvery hair and
small, partly closed eyes that twinkled yet looked ominously foreboding
enough to pierce cold steel.
"How's
Johnny?"
The question helped lower Jeb's anxiety level though the handshake was not
the firm grip given by Murray. The
question referred to Jeb's older brother, Johnny Jackson.
Johnny was a natural athlete who made the All-American Junior
College team while playing quarterback for Pearl River last year, was a
star in the post-season All-American Jr. College football game, and now
had an athletic scholarship with the University of Miami.
He was the first of Jeb's family, immediate and extended, to
attend college.
"He's doing
fine, Sir, and sends his regards."
"What can I
help ya' with?" Holden
questioned. Jeb paused for
a few seconds as he recalled that the man in front of him had a sterling
reputation as a gentleman around the ladies but was blunt and to the
point on business matters.
"Well, Sir,
I just dropped by to see if you needed another ball player."
"Well
now, Jeb, huh, huh, huh. Didn't
I tell ya' last week over the phone that I didn't need any more ball
players?" Coach Holden
followed the reply with his characteristic huh, huh, huh chuckle and
began his notorious mannerism of repeatedly moving his thumb through the
partly cupped fingers of his left hand.
Jeb knew he was in trouble because the old man squinted his eyes
and the tone of his voice changed, sounding deliberately sinister,
menacingly.
"Well yes,
Sir, you did," Jeb replied hesitantly.
He was embarrassingly flustered and attempted to lighten the
conversation by laughing it off.
"But, I
thought you might have changed your mind by now.
Ha, ha, ha. I know
my size and weight are awfully small when compared to your players but I
did beat out stiff competition in high school and played first string
quarterback for two years at Petal High.
Last year I passed for nine touchdowns, ran for three more, and
played defensive back. Other
players say I tackle them harder than most boys weighing 150
pounds." Realizing his
utterances were not being favorably received, Jeb was bound to get in
all his good points now, for he might never get another opportunity to
present his case. Coach
Holden nodded his head with a slight sneer on his face, glanced at Coach
Murray, and again chuckled, "Huh, huh, huh."
"Did
ya' hear that, Murray?
He thinks we don't receive scouting reports and might have changed our
minds. Have you changed
your mind about additional players?"
Holden queried in a pseudo-sarcastic manner, and the junior coach
duly noted that fact.
"No,
Sir!" He blurted.
Murray was resting uneasily in his chair because of the abrupt,
unrelenting direction this conversation had taken. He knew Coach was worried about the upcoming football season
for he had a tough football schedule, only a few returning starters from
last year's State Championship runner-up team, and was evidently miffed
because this young man had interrupted an important planning session.
However, he was surprised Coach Holden was in the process of
dismissing the young boy so quickly.
On the other hand, he was also quite aware that the ol' man
didn't like repeating himself. And Murray most assuredly knew to keep his own mouth shut or
Dobie would turn the verbal fury on him, as he had in the past.
"Well
now, Jeb," Holden continued with his eyes glued on the visibly
shakened young man, "Coach Murray hasn't changed his mind and I
haven't changed mine, so we still don't need another player.
Therefore, you just enjoy yourself while on campus then tell your
mom and dad hello for me when ya' get back home."
With
this comment, the conversation ended.
Jeb received weak handshakes from both men and was quickly
dismissed.
Again by
themselves, the two men relaunched into their planning session.
Though
he could hear the men through the door, Jeb was oblivious to their
sounds. He was
crushed. His scholarship effort had resulted in absolute failure; his
plans for the future had been dashed to the ground.
Slowly, he
moved out onto the campus underneath the trees where several students
relaxed between classes. Leaning
against the trunk of one of the great oaks, Jeb relived the conversation
and became angry due to the manner in which he had been treated.
Thoughts raced through his mind.
"How
could he be so callous?"
"Doesn't
he know how badly I need that scholarship?"
"Who
the hell is he to treat me so harshly?!"
"I've
a good mind to go back in that office and tell him what part of Hell he
can occupy!"
Unbeknownst
to him, a girl, in the company of her friend, had been quizzically,
amusingly watching Jeb. Suddenly,
both approached.
"Hi,"
greeted the strikingly pretty girl whose eyes gleamed with youthful
happiness. Jeb was
startled, but pleasantly so, and was immediately captivated by this
pretty, young thing who was lovely enough and exuded sufficient dynamism
to have stepped directly out of the spring edition of any fashion
magazine.
"Hi
yourself," he replied coyly, regaining composure.
"My
name is Susie Dalton. Aren't
you Jeb Jackson, and don't you play quarterback for Petal High?"
"Yes.
I'm Jeb Jackson and I played for Petal High School, but not
anymore."
"See there," she said to her friend. "I told you it was him."
"I
saw you play in a coupla’ games and thought you were terrific.
Are you gonna' play for The River?"
Jeb didn't know what to say momentarily but knew for certain his recent
failure would not be shared with this pretty, little blond-headed
admirer.
"Well,
maybe. I haven't made up my
mind. I'm just down
checking out the program, trying to determine whether to come here or
not."
"Oh,
I hope ya' do. You'd love
it here as we all do, and I'd be disappointed if you went somewhere
else."
Suddenly
the girls realized they had to hurry quickly for their next class, so
said good-bye, apologizing for having to leave so quickly.
Before departing, however, Susie made a personal request of Jeb
to look her up next time he returned to The River.
With
their departure, Jeb was left again with haunting thoughts but he didn't
feel so dejected now. For
there is nothing quite like having a couple of admirers around to boost
one's ego. The short visit resulted in a high level of adrenaline now coursing
through his veins.
Walking toward the highway in order to hitchhike back to Hattiesburg,
he again mentally taunted Coach Holden. "How
could he do this to me?" Then
a smile crossed his face and he mused, "How could he do this to
her? After all, doesn't he
know how distressed this young lady would be if I'm not allowed to come
back to The River and date her?"
Chuckling to himself, he thought, "What a heartless old man who'd
deprive this lovely young lady of my most ardent and passionate
affections. Gads, this
lovely wench could be driven to the point of slashing her wrists should
I fail to return."
Spirits
soaring, Jeb remembered that Johnny would be home from Florida for a few
days next week, and Coach Holden regarded him as one of the best
athletes he had ever coached. "Maybe
I can persuade Johnny to speak on my behalf," he gushed.
"Surely Coach Holden would honor such a plea from
Johnny."
These positive thoughts erased the agonizing pain that had racked Jeb less
than twenty minutes earlier. Such
is the wonder of youthful elixir.
Before long, he boarded a northbound automobile toward
Hattiesburg and home. He
bade farewell to The River for now, but not good-bye.
There would be another time, soon.
But Jeb's quest was now two-fold: His desire for a college
education for himself, and his pursuit to bring happiness to the life of
a pretty young damsel. Surely, Don Quixote would've been pleased with such noble
thoughts.